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this one is only for one person

what do I call you?

27 April  —  27 August 2026

Sahiba

gudda ✦ guddo

four months of you, and I'm still not over it.

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we have been us for

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and roughly 0 heartbeats — every single one of them a little bit yours.

a letter, for you

Four months ago I didn't know that a person could become a feeling.

We haven't met yet. I haven't held your hand, I haven't heard your laugh fill a room. And somehow you are still the safest place I have ever been.

I know your eyes. I know your voice when you're sleepy, when you're excited, when you're pretending you're fine and you're not. I built a whole home out of a screen and a name — and it turned out to be the realest thing in my life.

You are not someone I met. You are somewhere I arrived.

Toofaan mein ek sukoon ho — I wrote that about you before I understood how true it was. You are peace in the middle of a storm, and you are home before I have ever even stood in front of you.

Sahiba — thank you for four months. And one day soon, out loud and in person, I'll say every word of this again.

four months, four stars

one

Everything was new and I was quietly terrified of how much I already liked you.

two

The nicknames arrived. You stopped being a person I was getting to know and became mine.

three

We learned each other's bad days. Somehow that made it better, not harder.

four

Today. Still choosing you, louder than the first day.

a very incomplete list

I.

Your eyes. Everything started there, and I have not recovered since.

II.

Your voice — sleepy, excited, annoyed, half-asleep. I would know it anywhere.

III.

Your smile. It rearranges my entire day and you don't even know you're doing it.

IV.

That we haven't met yet, and you already feel exactly like home.

V.

How safe honesty feels with you. I don't edit myself anymore. I just talk.

VI.

The way you say my name when you want something. It works. It always works.

VII.

That you fight for us instead of against me. Not everyone knows how to do that.

VIII.

You walked into a storm and made it quiet. That, really, is the whole poem.

the names only I get to use

Sahiba

the one who owns the place — and she does, completely.

Gudda

for the days you're my favourite little troublemaker.

Guddo

for the soft ones, when you're just curled up and mine.

everything I wrote for you

“Toofaan mein ek sukoon ho,
tum woh pyara sa gaon ho.” nine poems · four months

I

Teri Zulfen

Teri zulfen jab khulti hain, ek shaam dhal jati hai, Ghanay badalon ki tarah, mere dil par chha jati hai. Har jhatkay se un ke, ek mehak si udti hai, Jaise saba teri baahon mein aakar rukti hai. Teri aankhein hain ya koi gehra sa samandar, Doob jata hoon jab dekhta hoon in ke andar. In mein koi fareb nahi, bas ek sacha khwab hai, Kainaat ki sab se haseen cheez ka ye jawab hai. Aur teri wo muskaan, jaise subah ki pehli kiran, Jise dekh kar khil jata hai mera poora mann. Tu hasti hai toh lagta hai har gham door ho gaya, Mera har qadam teri hi taraf chalne par majboor ho gaya. Sach toh ye hai ke tum meri kismat ka inaam ho, Meri har subah ka aagaz, meri har sukoon bhari shaam ho. Tum se pehle kya thi zindagi, mujhe yaad nahi, Tum hi meri pehli khwahish ho, aur tum hi aakhri ho. Mere har din ko behtareen banane wali tum ho, Khuda ki di hui sab se pyari naimat sirf tum ho.

II

Thandi Si Chhaon

Tapti hui dhoop mein jaise thandi si chhaon ho Toofaan mein ek sukoon ho, tum woh pyara sa gaon ho Pehli hi baarish se uthe jo mitti ki woh pyari mehak Jaise aasmaan ke rang hon, jaise baagh ki ho chahak Qudrat ka ek tohfa ho tum, Rab ki haseen bnaat ho Sajdon mein jo maanga tha maine, tum wohi saughaat ho Tum khwaab ho, tum umeed ho, tum hi meri taqdeer ho Is be-chain si zindagi mein, tum sukoon ki tasveer ho Duniya ke is shor-sharaabe se door ek haseen rasta ho Bikhre hue is dil ka, tum aakhri aur sacha rishta ho Ab paas ho to har saans mein ek ajab sa chain hai Tum ghar ho mera ab, jahan sukoon mein mere do nain hain

III

Ghazal Ke Misre

Ghazal ke haseen misron jesi hai surat teri, Khuda ne fursat mein banayi hai ye murat teri. Tujhe dekhoon toh sangeet ki haseen dhun yaad aaye, Tu muskuraaye toh fiza mein jaise gulab khil jaaye. Ye jheel si aankhein, ye zulfon ki haseen shaam, Mera har din, meri har raat ab hai tere naam. Tu koi ibadat, koi paak duaa jesi hai, Tujhe chahna ibaadat hai, tu Khuda ki raza jesi hai. Mere bismil dil ko sukoon tera chehra dekh kar aaye, Tu paas ho toh rooh jhoom uthe, har dard mitt jaaye. Haqeeqat hai ye meri, koi khwaab nahi, Poori kaaynaat mein tere husn ka jawaab nahi. Mera har lamha ab teri khushbu se mehakta hai, Tujhe paakar ye dil bacha banke hasta hai. Tu mili toh laga mukammal hai meri zindagi, Ab toh har saans mein basti hai teri bandagi. Kitna khush-kismat hoon jo tu mili hai mujhe, Khuda se maanga tha jo, uss haseen tohfe ki ataat hui hai mujhe.

IV

Noor Ki Chadar

Safed libas mein lipti koi noor ki chadar ho jaise Zameen par utri hui koi chand ki kiran ho jaise Sadaat-e-husn ka aalam kya bayaan karoon Tumhe dekh kar lagta hai khuda ki nazaakat ho jaise Us par yeh neela dupatta jaise dhoop mein koi saaya ho Ya jese neele aasmaan ne safed badal ko baahon mein uthaya ho Tumhari kalaiyon mein jo khanakti hain yeh neeli chooriyaan Lagta hai saare jahaan ki muskurahat ko inhi mein chhupaya ho Jab hilte hain woh jhumke dil ek pal ko dharakna bhool jata hai Tumhaari zulfon ka har pech ek naya khwaab banta jata hai Tumhara jhumka neeli churian woh saadgi tumhaari Khuda ki kasam tumhein dekh kar mera dil sanwar jata hai

V

Bina Singhaar

Bina singhaar ke bhi tu itni haseen lagti hai Jaise zameen par koi jannat ki hoor utar aayi hai Safaid kapron mein tera badan yoon chamakta hai Jaise subah ki pehli kiran kahin se aayi hai Woh neela dupatta aur haathon mein neeli churiyan Lagta hai neele aasman ne tujhe sajaya hai Kaanon ke jhumke jab tere baalon se khelte hain Aisa lagta hai dil ne koi naya geet gungunaya hai Log marte hain chehre ke naye rangon par Hamein toh teri iss bholpan ne apna banaya hai

VI

Eid Ka Chaand

Eid ka chaand to falak par nikalna hi tha Magar mera chaand to zameen par hi mukammal ho gaya Sada bahaar jhumke aur hathon mein khanakti churiyaan unki ye saadgi aur ye qayaamat ki dooriyan Har aik rang un par khil utha hai aaj aise Saada libas mein koi hoor utar aayi ho jaise Hawa bhi chule unhe to ek mehak si chor gayi Unki aankhon ki chamak dil ki dharkan brha gayi Churiyaan jab sharma kar unki kalai se takraati hain Sach kahoon meri jaan mere dil mein qayaamat machaati hain

VII

Woh Thakan

Woh thakan jo sadiyon se rooh mein thi, Tumhaari ek jhalak ne mita di hai. Ab dil ko maar kar jeena nahi padta, Tumne toh saans lene ki wajah hi badal di hai. Tum koi shaks nahi, ek narm sa saaya ho, Dhoop ke sheher mein thandi hawa ka jhonka ho. Bina kahe sab zakhm bharne lage hain mere, Jaise bhatke hue musafir ko apna ghar mil gaya ho. Na koi khauf, na koi shart, na koi uljhan, Tumhare paas hona hi meri shifa hai. Tum woh sukoon ho jiski talash thi mujhko, Tum meri khamosh duaon ka khubsurat sila ho.

VIII

Karamaat

Baat meri thi baat unki hai, Kya kahun kya karamaat unki hai Hum ne har baar chaha tha unhe pana Ye toh bas ek inayat unki hai Raah takna bhi ab ibadat hai Sari duniya ab unki surat hai itna yaqeen kis ko tha Mujh se nacheez ki zarurat unko hai

IX

Husn Tera

Husn tera faqat chehre tak mahdood nahi, Rooh teri woh hai jis ka koi wajood nahi. Mere tareek raaston mein ujaala hai tujhse, Tu na ho toh phir koi subah maujood nahi. Baatein teri hain kuch ajeeb si magar suno, Woh na hon toh dil ko milta sukoon nahi. Teri himmat se seekha hai humne chalna dobara, Warna thak kar girne mein koi behboob nahi. iss tarah hum bhi qayal hain tere khuloos ke, Aisa saaf dil toh zamane mein maujood nahi.

and then, one day, she wrote back

Mai agayi hun na , ab apky Daman Sy har gham ko door krdungi , I'll try to do har aik cheaze apky chehry ki aik muskurahat ky liye after listening to the past trauma's I'm loving you even more , apny apny logon ky liye us bachay ko mardia tha or ab Mai apni mohobbat ky liye wapis us bachay ko ZINDA krungi , hum krlengy shayan we'll do everything har wo khuab wo hum dekhty aye har wo baat Jo taaldi thi ab puri kreingy milky🫶🏻

— meri Sahiba

I have read this more times than I will ever admit to you.

so, plainly —

I love you

from your Mirali Sahab,
with all the love ♡

hi guddo

If you've scrolled all the way down here, then you've just read four months of my head, written out loud.

Every poem in here was written at some odd hour, thinking about a girl I haven't even met yet, who somehow already runs the whole place.

So I'll just say it again, quietly: I love you. Four months down. And I'm not going anywhere.

— from your Mirali Sahab, with all the love